By Abby Hertz
I’m happy to report that this is the last year that I will be in my 20’s. On May 19, 2014 I will turn 30 and enter into a new phase of my adult life.
It’s come to my attention that many women are not actually as excited as I am to let go of the youthful and exuberant years of your twenties, the pre-marriage, pre-children, pre-responsibility years when you can go out drinking with friends until dawn, sleep with random people, and not know who you want to be when you grow up.
Sounds fun, right? Well, not to me. I always dreaded being the one girl that didn’t want to get drunk or high or the one who didn’t take it as a compliment when solicited for sex by random dudes at a party. Not knowing what I was going to actually do with my life wasn’t “freeing” for me; it weighed me down.
My twenties were filled with confusion and hardship, self-doubt, low self-esteem, and I just wasn’t old enough yet to handle things emotionally in the way that I needed to as an “adult.”
The big 3-0 symbolizes me entering into adulthood officially and stepping into my power as a woman. I feel that other women will take me more seriously and that my age will no longer be a liability when I take on larger-than-life projects for work. Men will not automatically treat me like I’m a young idiot girl that just might do them “favors” to further my career, or immediately look to my male colleagues for answers even when I am in charge of a project.
But most importantly, I hope that my thirties bring me more comfort in my own skin. Being an intelligent, experienced, mature woman has so much more real power than youth. I am finally ready to become the powerful force I always knew I was supposed to be.
Thirty means letting go of whatever obstacles held me back in the past. It means taking charge of my emotions, my health, my career, and myself. It means working on my self-confidence and developing a genuine and deep-seated sense of who I am as a woman.
What does turning 30 mean to you?
If you are past 30, what are some positive changes you saw in yourself and your life after you turned 30?
Abby Hertz is a visual and performance artist living and working in NYC.
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